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March 13 Just checking inJust checking in to say hey and let everyone know we are still here and loosing!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry been super busy with work and wedding planning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope all is well for everyone! March 04 Harsh Reality!!!Let me just say WOW!!!!! There are some really amazing pages on here!!
You knwo when I first started this with my sister i reallyt hought, man we could really be int his competition, we could win!! ha ha, I was silly!!! I have had so much drama and so much going on in my life and it all seemed to happen during the course of this competitiont hat I ahven't even been able to continue the major weight loss I so easily acheived before this contest!!! I eman I lost over 100 pounds in a year, and what I jsut thought it was going to keep droping off????? No, not so much, I mean between health and just life in general, it has just not went the way I wanted it to and I am bummed about it but I am not goign to give up!!
I am excited to see just how creative so many people out there are and how much people are willign to share. It is good and bad, hey we wanted to win,a dn with me being a writer i had hoped that would help us, but wow, there are just alot of deserving people on this site who have really been on all day, leaving great comments and really REALLY!!! have set a great example! I am not quitting, pam and I are definitly still in this, I really jsut wanted ot blog and let everyone know how great I thought they were doing. I know I haven't accomplished what i wanted too during this challenge, but I learned alot. i learned about life, and how sometimes it takes taking a time out, to really do what is best for your body!! Granted I am sure I couldn't have possible know i would have my jaw broken or get a serious medical diagnosis over the course of the challenge, but even besides that, life has just been alot and I ahve jsut not had the time and determination I once had. But I am back int he game, and not for the contest but for me!!! I plan to keep this site (yes this was prompted by so many asking how many of us are going to stay here after the contest ends!) and continue my journey. And hey, i won the grand prize because on October 18, 2008 I will be marrying the love of my life and it just doesn't get any better than that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Toni!
February 28 Relationships, pros or cons???So Angela had posted a blog this morning about her husband getting ready to leave for Houston without her and how much she was going to miss him and it really made me thing about our relationships, well actually more about mine! (Yeah yeah I know the whole world revolves around me!! ha ha!!!) I have (or I guess I should say now have been!!) always been really independent but not so much since Kris! He has totally changed me and I start to wonder is it all positive. I mean don’t get me wrong I have always wanted a man who truly understands me and accepts me as I am, and that is definitely what I have, but when does that kind of unconditional love become not in your best interest? I know I will probably get tons of hate email about how spoiled I am and how I should just appreciate what I have and trust me I do. NOBODY knows more than me how lucky I am to have such a wonderfully loving man, but he is just like you are perfect baby!! Always tells me everyday how great I look and even when I first started loosing the weight he was always like, well I love you NOW and however you are, and you are the most beautiful woman in the world…yada yada yada! I am not complaining what woman does not love compliments, but I just feel like I don’t know, like I don’t have any pressure to better myself! I know that is horrible for me to say, and I am lucky that I have the kind of man who will let me blame him for my own lack of motivation of late, but it just flat out comes down to the fact that he has really MADE ME LOVE ME!!! And I didn’t for sooooo long!! he has made me accept myself as I am, and I know it sounds bad, but alot of my motivation was based in my hatred and unhappiness with myself! Now that that is gone, I feel like I have kinda lost my drive. Let me tell you, there is nothing like being uncomfortable in your own skin to get you motivated and up off your butt!!! Kris is big on, “if you don’t like it change it, or shut up about it!!” And I have kinda taken on that mantra as well, but I really do just LOVE myself!! flab and all. And I am proud of that, but it also makes me feel sad, because there is still more improvement I have to make!! Okay, so enough of me whining!! I guess with the Rheumatoid Arthritis and the mouth surgery and everything else that have been going on, I just feel like my weight loss has fallen to the back burner and I need to write this blog. I need to put it out there that I was off track, in order to get myself back on track, because even now as I write this it is like come on girl. You have a man who loves you as you are, and you think that could in some way be negative!! I am saying it to myself!! GIRL GET A GRIP!!!! Thanks for letting me vent and I am sure all your comments (and PLEASE DO COMMENT!!!) will give me the push I need t0 make the most of this next month and 1/2 (OH YEAH!!! I AM GETTIGN MY DRESS FINALLY ORDERED SO AFTER THAT IT IS ALL ABOUT MAINTAINING, NOT LOOSING BECUSE I CAN’T HAVE THE FIASCO I JUST HAD, HAVING TO CHANGE MY DRESS BECAUSE I COULDN’T FILL TI OUT LIKE I DID BEFORE!!!).So wish me luck!!! My goal is 30 pounds!!!!! Hold me to it!!!! THANKS BUDDIES!!! February 25 I'm back!!Sore but back!!!Surgey went fine!!! Got all 5 wisdome teeth out no problem!!! i still looks like a gerbil!! but the swelling should go down soon!!! Still not really able to eat real food, so yep, i am starving but it still jsut hurts too much to chew!!!! Hope everyone is doing well!!
Oh yeah I just had to share one small victory I had. last time I had surgery, my knee replacement, I had major IV problems!! They tried like 20 times and could not get and IV, I ended up having to have it in my neck!! Well I guess 100 pounds of weight off does make a big difference, they got the IV in ont he first try, no problem!!! It is just nice to see that I am making positive changes in my life and they are paying off!! Just a small victory I wanted to share!! Have a great day all!!! February 21 Surgery Tommorrow!!!So, I have my wisdom teeth removal tommorrow and I am terrified!! but hey, it possible hurt worse than it is hurting right now!
So i will be MIA for a few days!!!
Wish me luck!!!
Toni
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